In order to be alive, I must forget you
I need you here, or I need you gone.

Yeah girl, I hope you're having fun with the love of my life.
So you think you think you know him, and you think you love him?
You don't know the half about that boy you call your own.
You don't know the half about loving that boy you call your own.
So yeah girl, go have fun.

Who new all i needed was to be with you to get over you?
Because the you I use to know is gone. And I don't like the you
I've been seeing and hearing.

"They say were at the top of the food chain, But they're wrong. Cancer is." 
 rip grandad.

Who needs you?

Nothing I do can stop me from this hurt.
Loving you so much only brought tears. Starting to forget about you did the same. Because
moving on and getting over you, over something so great, is unbearable. Like letting go of something
that makes you feel so good, yet so miserable at the same time. Mixed emotions to the max.
and it just goes to show, I just can't win.

Like drugs, like the ones pumping in your veins. It takes you up, up, up.
Then takes you down to the lowest lows. Even though you always find yourself going right back.
Thats what you did to me, to high to realize how crazy in love i was with you. They say you are
what you eat. I say you  are what you smoke and I'm right, you're my drug.

It's hard to wait around for something
that you know will never happen,
but it's harder to stop when it's everything you want.

and when i'm over you, i'll be the happiest i've ever been.
happier then you ever made me when i was so fond of you.

It's been so long since we've spoken. So long since I've seen you.
So why do I miss you so? You found someone who loves you and I'm
jealous as hell. Oh don't get me wrong, I'm happy for you as much as it makes me cringe.
It makes me happy to see you happy. Even if they're tears coming down my face. God, I miss you though.

But all I could say was goodnight.

Why'd you go and break what's already broken? I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
How long till this goes away? I try to remember to forget you. But I break down every time I do.
It's left me less than zero, beat down and bruised. I can't see her with you
Why'd you go and break what's already broken? I try to take a breath but I'm already choking
Cause everywhere I look I can see how you hold her. How long till this goes away?

I hate you and i hate her. You'd think someone could never feel this way about someone
unless that someone felt it back, right? Wrong, wrong wrong. Shit, was I wrong.
So now on, thats what I have to remind myself. If you ever wanted me, you had the chance.
and you didn't take it. I have to remind myself to forget you and every moment we ever had.

  You're not here. That stops my heart.

Well, eventually all the sadness, the disapointment, the emptiness, the memories of you that haunted
me day after day, and the sleepless nights I spent crying over you turned into anger.
Pure anger that made me shake. Anger that made me scream because I didn't know
how else to deal with it. Sorrow into anger, making my life miserable. All because of you.

Another night goes by without sleeping
cause i know i won't wake up next to you.

I guess I was mistaken when I could've sworn
I saw something in your eyes, something for me.
How could I be such an idiot? But then I remind myself
of how you led me on with all the I-want-you-around's
and what not. How was I suppose to know you were
the worlds best liar with a million ulterior motives?

you've got to suck it up.
You're not his buttercup,
you're not his favorite book.

so watch me, as I lie straight to your face. once again.
nothings wrong. nothing at all.
"Trust me, I couldn't care less that you're with another."
is only what i will say and then you'll trust me, your mistake.

Unbearable. Thats one way to describe this feeling. 
It is so unbearable. Wouldn't you think feelings this strong
would mean something more then this? Well, i guess not since you're
not here. You're so very far away.

I'd spend a million nights just like tonight, you know.
I screamed your name at the sky until i lost my voice
well, I would give my life for you.

Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight
And now I regret the day we met
And help me forget your name.

this, this could the summer,
the summer of love.
and this, this could be
the summer when I grow up.

My heavy soul can't stand the light.
It burns me straight to the bones, my bones
In the desert sun I watched my nerves come undone.

I never knew you til you left me with the crying disease

and you bring me to my knees, again
all this time that i could beg you please, in vain
all the times that i felt insecure, for you
and i leave my burdens at the door.

i miss you, miss you so much.
my heads spinning, twisting, running away
you're out of reach, so out of reach.

what is the root of heartbreak? our actions.by our own hands.

i never will forget those nights, i wonder if it was a dream.
remember how i made you crazy?
remember how you made me scream?
i dont understand what happened to our "love". but baby when i get you back...
im gonna show you what im made of.

It's always you in my big dreams

Falling down, it’s all around, it’s the only thing
that I have found, beneath the sun.
Scattering, there has to be a little more simplicity, to make this one.
So take me, away.So take me, away.
It’s brought me down, away from all I know.

But for all you know
I'm already gone.

and really, when you think about it, shouldn't it of been me
who stopped talking to you? and shouldn't it of been me
angry with you? and really, when you think about it,
shouldn't if of been me who stopped caring about you?

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone.

Your always getting higher,You don't desire me
So what have I got to prove and what have I got to lose
When your not worth fighting for and why am I feeling down
While your out messing around and your not worth begging for.

Hand me downs and photographs spread across the floor
a broken record spins in circles, she can't listen anymore
she's turned around a thousand times, she set that bridge a fire
but did you wanna listen? you took the world with you so what is left,
so what is left for me?

My mouth will overflow with your evil soul
and i'll be convulsing for days in this hole
Bubbling at the lips you use to love to kiss
Well, i think i'm trying to wake up, but i cant

Good-fucking-bye.

take your wings outside, you can't fly in here.
besides, a purple sky is better soaring for you my angel.
you're an angel, you little devil. |
as for me i'll stay inside.
i'll be just fine and i'll watch from the window

yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
of self conclusion in one simplified notion
you see the trick it that you're never supposed to act on it
no matter how unbearable the misery gets

Theres something that i cant quite explain, i'm so in love with you
you'll never take that away and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more. you never take that away.

Your brain is faulty wiring, the reason is tiring
Keep treating the curse, Imagine the worst
systematic, sympathetic,
quite pathetic, apologetic, paramedic
your heart is prosthetic

This is getting over you.

get it back, get it back to how it was,
how it was before. i miss you,
and i wish i knew you felt the same
but from the looks of it,
you're not missing me a bit.
because if you did,
you wouldn't be smiling that smile.
oh, that smile. the smile that brings tears to my eyes
and a lump in my throat.
Oh, don't get me wrong, im perfectly fine.
perfectly fine.

so for now on, i won't think, won't think about you.
pushing you out can't be so hard. you pushed me out of your
life easily, i can get you out of my head. i can.

i've never felt love and hate so strongly all at once
more then i have right now. and you're too blame.
and i can't understand why I feel this way, i can't understand
what went so terribly wrong.

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate.

Oh, did I mention
when I see you it
stings like hell?
To the fact that
we could have something,
that'll never happen

This table has taken a turn for the worst.
Rock bottom, and over the edge.
well,it's not like it hurts that much anyway.
Upside down and inside out
When I leave here I'm going alone.
Well it's not like it, not like it hurts much anyway.


oh, you must be blind
shes suffering, yet all alone.
the only thing she has
are headphones on her ears,
the music that drains it all out.

well i'll meet you at the river,
where we both can clear our heads.
I think we would look great dead.

let's just drink to get drunk
and tell each other everything
for a drunken mind speaks a sober heart,
then we can go on pretending like nothing
did happen because the truth is i've never
fallen so hard, and i dont think i could
deal with the though of rejection.

can you find my angel? she crawled under the bed.
I thought i saw her breathing, but i found out she was dead.

GIVING UP NEVER WAS SO HARD
This time I won't try to reach you.
You're already too far gone.
Slipped past and I didn't notice,
Did we ever sing the same song?
Two lives, two books of illusion,
A chapter in the essence of time.
The story we wrote in one season,
Came to an end in one night.
Remember the times when we started believing,
That everything would be alright?
You carried my heart in the midst of this battle...
In your hands.
And I'll wait for you. I'll become something new.
And I'll sing for you until this dream comes true.
in memory-brightwood.

I can barely breathe
And its getting worse
I would whisper sweet
But I cant find words.

Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

And you just don't get it you keep it copacetic
And you learn to accept it you know it's so pathetic.

Born to be down
What good is confidence?

you had to take her and break her down
she let her heart && soul right in your
hands and you stole her every dream
and you crushed her plans.

 save your breath this time around.

She lies and says
shes in love with him
can't find a better man,
she dreams in color
she dreams in red,
can't find a better man.

I found fountains of imagery that passed through me like a knife
from a group of friends that perfer to attack from the back
i'm trying to grasp the concepts of your dementions
while my universe is laced around your wrist.

I've been changing but you'll never see me
now i'm blaming you for everything.

we live to die but were dieing to live.
 

Lately, what doesn't remind me of you?

he carved an X on his bare chest. "That's where my problems start"

you talk to me and I remeber how every word lingered on your lips for hours.i close my eyes and try to remeber the way you felt next to me days after you've gone. and somehow i know that years from now, thoughts of you will still keep me awake at night.

I don't think you will ever comprehend the hold you have on me.

Let's run away to a place where the air tastes like rain and the sun shines like Sunday morning. You bring your laugh and I'll bring my sense of humer, and we can taste the days, one week after another.

Beneath this wave
I just can’t take your breath away. </3

Darling don't you lie, lie to me

I'm sorry wont cut it for the rest of your life
get over yourself and say goodbye
Forget my name, forget my face
hope you get on a plane and forget this place
So I never have to deal with you again.

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
The silence get's us no where
Get's us no where way too fast

Its hard to make a conversation when he's taking my breath away.<3

The week ends the week begins
She thinks, we look at each other
Wondering what the other is thinking
But we never say a thing
These crimes between us grow deeper.

Cause I fear I might break
And I fear I cant take it
Some night I'll lie awake
Feeling empty

Take your wings outside, you can't fly in here

So obviously desperate,
So desperatly obvious.

Now I realize, I don't mean anything to you.
I've got to remind myself, i'm the last thing on your mind.

waste all your time with me
I know I'm a mess right now
don't give up believe
I'd wait it out for you

I am stricken and can't let you go
When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know
That I am crippled by all that you've done

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what we call a tragedy.
Come back to me,
Come back to me, To me.

I fell into yesterday
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy

There's so much that you don't want me to know,
so much I need to know.
you're such a mystery, such a mystery.

You have no idea. No idea how much I need you.
Simply put it, you're killing me.

and she'll get over you, just give her time.
she'll get over you, because she has too.
Eventually, she'll run out of tears.
she can't live like this, she can't.

I know what runs through your blood
You do this all in vain
Because of you my mind is always racing
and it gets under my skin, to see you giving in
and now your trip begins.

I wanted to be the breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear,
Vacation seems far... seems far from here

Love is just a song today.
Love is just a song.

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I took this picture
thinking of you

send it in a letter,
make yourself feel better
<3

you make me smile,
please stay for awhile now
just take your time,
wherever you go.

not even hell could be hotter then you right now.

suddenly you became so distant,
so far away.
your here but your not really here.
who have you become, where did you go?

with the turn of your head
you broke my heart
with the words unsaid

And it only hurts, when you cry
I'm only sad, when there's tears in your eyes
I can't lie and say I'm fine
But it only hurts, when you cry

its amazing how i freeze up,
whenever your around.

You carry too much on your shoulders
I can't wait till you let me down
Cause the only thing we're getting is older
This time never comes back around
It just goes away, goes away

&& isn't this the best part of breaking up?
finding someone else you can't get enough of.

I'd love to be the one to
disappoint you when I don't fall down

It's too late baby,
there's no turning around
I've got my hand in my pocket
and my head in a cloud
this is how i do
when i think about you
i never thought that you
could break my apart
I keep a sinister smile
and a hold of my heart.

bring me flowers, talk for hours
ohh i like you.

& i'd rather be standing outside
in the freezing cold with you,
than to be warm
in the arms of someone else.

Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me?
Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me

waking up from this nightmare
how's your life, what's it like there?
is it all what you want it to be?
does it hurt when you think about me;;
&&how broken my heart is

being together is more than just physical.
it's about understanding the other person.
being there for them, talking for hours,
making each other's dreams come true,
being in love & not needing anything
to keep it worth while

in the car, the radio leaves me
searching for your star,
a constellation of frustration;
driving hard, singing my
thoughts back to me,
and watching heartache on tv.

oh darling darling
grow up, get real.
your pathetic, and i couldn't take it.

she's slipping under yet again
anxious and nervous as she
looks down at her shoes.
embarassed to talk,
she's oh so insecure.
she just can't take it anymore.

he's the blade and you're just paper,
you're afraid cause hes got closer
your back-stepping and hes out
wrecking everything in your life.

my boy's in the next room
sometimes i wish he were you
I guess i never really moved on<3

I don't know why we stopped
talking, but it kills me.
I love you.

tell me you can't stand me,
rip me to shreads
spill your guys.
come on i dare you.
i'm sick of your lies.

if you're over me, i'm already over you
if it's all been done, what is left to do
how can you hang up if the line is dead
if you're moving on, i'm already gone

your my winter
during the summer.
so far away, so cold.

there's something about you
that makes my heart beat faster
maybe its the way you look at me
maybe its the way your smile makes me smile.

there's a song thats inside of my soul
its the one that i've tried to write over and over again
i'm awake in the infinite cold
but you sing to me over and over again
so i lay my head back down
and i lift my hands
and pray to be only yours
i pray to be only yours
i know now you're my only hope<3

There are moments when,
When I know it and
The world revolves around us,
And we're keeping it,
Keeping it all going,
This delicate balance,
Vulnerable all knowing<3

you always know there's goign to be
someone else. but deep inside, there's a little part
of you that likes to pretend that he's waiting for you. its when
you see him with someone else, thats you're
forced to grow up and stop pretending.

remember when we first met?
and everything was still just a bet
in love's game. you would call,
i would call back. and then i'd leave
a message on your answering machine.

they sat together, as just friends.
11:11 rolled around, someone yelled
"make a wish."
they wished for eachother.

so far, so good
so what happens to us now?
something about the way you looked at me
tonight makes me wonder what's going on,
will it be this was tommrow?

when autumn comes, it doesn't ask.
It just walks in where it left you last.
and you never know when it starts,
until there's a fog inside the glass
around your summer heart

i wish i'd seen you as a little boy,
without your armor to fend off the world.
i would have taken you under my wing
and have protected you from everything,
so you wouldn't be afraid to tell me
what i need to hear.

im scared to death.
im nervous, i'm shy
i don't know what to do
im madly in love with you.

we go days without having
a meaningful conversation
and I used to miss you so much
when that happened, but it never
seemed like you missed me.
and I guess because of it
I stopped missing you and
it shouldn't be like this

so its not gonna be easy
its gonna be really hard
we're gonna have to work at this everyday
but i want to do that because
i want you, i want all of you
forever, you and me
-the notebook

it's unexpected, it's doubtful
none the less it's love.
we were unexpected
we were doubtful
none the less, were in love.

and she didn't care what people thought about her,
she didn't care that people thought it was just a crush
oh someone guy who could never like her
no one thought they were soulmates
but she  didn't give up, because when she looked into his eyes
she saw his concern, his love, their future.

.